Ano ba, ha?

Ba’t ba ganun ang buhay ng tao?

Minsan di maiwasang masiraan ng ulo

Nakakabaliw talaga ang buhay

Minsan, isip ko na ito’y wala ng saysay

Ano ba dapat gawin ng tao

Para tayo ay makuntento?

Ba’t ba ang hirap hirap maging masaya?

Ang isip ko sana’y bigyan na ng laya

Ano ba dapat kong gawin

Sa buhay ko’ng parang nabibitin?

Parang… di ko na kasi kaya

Mga anghel sa akin ngayon ay nagaanyaya

Ba’t ba nandito na naman ako

Sa lugar na kinakatakutan ko

Hindi na ba ako palalayain ha

Magdurusa na lang ba sa tuwina?

Please naman o ayoko na

Sana naman maintindihan nyo na

Gusto ko naman maging masaya

Kahit minsan lang, sige na.

Forbidden...

Forbidden
But welcomed.
Treasured
Yet hidden.

Fragile-
Cautious-
Envious-
But right.

Meant-
Destined-
Unexpected-
All wonderful.

In your face, the real deal

I suffer from depression

My whole life, I am barely hanging on

What’s the secret formulation

For me to face my problems head on?

Is this world a place for me?

Do I belong here, please tell me

Do I make a significance here

Or my life is really what I fear?

I somehow feel rejected

When all I want is to be accepted

Is this all just in my head?

If I’m like this, pretty soon I’d be dead.

What do you suggest me to do?

Things in my past, I wish to undo

I don’t deserve those, you know

How come God You gave me this sorrow?

A poem of a depressed soul

Can you see me
Behind the blinding light?
Can you hold me
When I am being pushed away?
Can you wipe away my tears
When tears won’t fall?
Can you save me
When nobody can?

Been living in desperation
Opening my heart is an illusion
I can never let you see
What is truly the real me.

Please don’t blame me
I am only taking it easy
The world would be better without me
Selfishly said, I know you’d hate me.

Love me for who I am
The person you know IS me
Need not go any deeper
You’d just lose your way as you go.

How can I be understood
When I can’t even understand?
How can I be saved
When saving me will only dig my grave?

Deep thoughts, deadly thoughts
Deep words, evil words
Deep pain, self-inflicted
Deep soul, forever lost.